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10/1/09

i used to be a sun chaser

if you grew up in a place with constant rain you would understand

a sun chaser is one who gets in her car

and drives past the clouds toward the sun

she moves when it moves

she stays when it stays

i did this often during springtime in Eugene

on those rare days of fleeting sun in march, april, or may

i wanted to feel that warmth that brings happiness

i wanted light because I was sick of darkness

i convinced myself it was worth chasing

and at the end of the day, I had to drive home in darkness

back to the place I started.

now I live in Hawaii where abundant sun is all around me

i have to take a cold shower just to not be warm

as much as I tried to convince myself, sun was not what I lacked in Oregon.

sun was just an excuse to leave, to chase something that could take me far away,

or at least make me feel like I was for those few short months it hung around.

sunny days were my temporary escape from darkness, but it was just an excuse.

i was tired of chasing

but I don't have to anymore

now I don't chase

it's all around me

now I sit and wait for whatever it is I have been chasing for so long,

now I'll stay long enough to figure out what exactly I've been running away from.

i stay because staying is what I know I want to do now.

Talitha Koum!

She was only 12 years old

her father begged, pleaded, and was told

"Don't be afraid; just believe"

2 words were spoken over her

With all the Power of a Savior He said

"Talitha Koum!"

With all the Love of a Father He said

"Little girl, I say to you, get up!"

She didn't just get up

she got up immediately and walked around

and the people were completely astonished

Heal and Move

Heal and Move

Heal and Move

He heals us so we can move again

And when we move, people will be astonished with our God

He doesn't want us to heal and sit on Satan's bench

He didn't heal us so we can sit out another inning

He took us off the injured list

He took us off the list of the hopeless

He took us off the list of the dead

So we would live again

So people would be astonished with Him

and His ability

to Heal and Move

Are you going to sit this one out again?

Or are you ready to Move

Talitha Koum!

for you were once dead, and now you LIVE!

Mark 5:41

Yo.

Today I opened my eyes

on that string I often find myself on

and I began my day on the up

I almost got stuck on the up

like when you get that gnarly tangle

the one where you have to ask your brother to get out for you

and then he breaks your string

I almost asked to get untangled

I was ready for the breaking

but then we went for a swim

in water that was so fluid you couldn't help but loosen up

I did the dance, the one that untangled me

and let go a little more

and throughout the day

I continued to let go

until night fell

and I touched the ground

when I did

I liked what I felt

on this ground is trust

solid faithful trust

I have landed

and I'm not going back up that string

not because I'm afraid to get tangled

but because you don't have me on a yo-yo

Boiling Point

Extinguished

and even as I write that I know it's not true

because I felt it burning earlier today

That little flame, tiny heat source that indicates life

But now it's dull

almost a faint memory

How quickly it blows out

As I melt here under the hot sun

I know I'm the only one that longs to be lit on fire

I am hungry for the burn

not just the burn on my skin, but in my soul too

Because no one here is asking for more heat

no one is asking for more sun

In fact, they wouldn't mind if it cooled down a little

But I am sitting here watching the sun set

and I am begging for it to stay up

I am begging to be closer

begging to be ignited

I am begging for more SON.

dial it down

How good it must feel

to see all your dreams come true

to put them into reality

He saw that there was darkness

So He said, 'let there be light'

Let there be ocean and sky too

and it was good

it was GOOD

When will be learn

to believe like that?

to have Power like that?

as I sit here, writing on my clean journal

crisp white pages

sand gets in the creases

I look up and say

Let there be justice

Let there be mercy

Let there be grace

Let there be a place for us

and I look down

and He says

'Lyd, let there be sand too.'

court jester

you trickster you!

telling me one place
meaning another
giving me a taste
then taking it away

maybe you aren't a trickster
but you sure are a tease
telling me to go in faith
to leave everything I need

well here I am
flirting with a place
from two islands away
I fell for it like a sucker.

You had my attention
you gave your commandment
I came and as soon as I got a taste
you changed my palette

silly me
for thinking I had any idea what you meant
now my imagination is flowing
possibility surrounds me
potential is looming

maybe this is just another stand up routine
maybe I'm just a punchline
or maybe you aren't joking.

fences

I have bruises and scratches all over my legs

my legs that can't possibly walk, swim, bike, hike, or run any farther

but I know that when my head leaves the pillow

I'll be doing it all over again

because I'm finally here

I am home

on this island with no hope of return

to that life I was leading before

that life I was 'living'

living is what i do now

you want to know what death feels like?

ask me.