full of potential and opportunity
enter it with confidence
confidence that this year
its going to be different
this year
things are gonna change
time to get back on the right foot
with boldness and pride
looking forward to the clean slate
the new year brings
The only problem is
that's not my reality
right now
I am entering the year
anything
but
confident
my slate feels murky
grayish
like I missed the day when everyone else got to turn theirs in for a new one
and my right foot, is actually my Left
and as far as confidence goes
I have none of that
because as I see it
I am entering the year
a homeless
unstable
transient
I have never started a year like this before
but at least I have the decency to say it to my face
This is my reality of the new year
as I stand and picture everyone around me
rushing into the new year like it's the ocean on a beautiful day
I know I'm sitting on the sand
I'm not ready for the new swell that's coming in
But
I am not the first of God's children
to start the year off as a
homeless
unstable
transient
and I won't be the last
I know a little piece of how the rest of the world starts a new year
a little less sparkly
a little less noisy
a little less party
same looking up to the sky
except maybe this year not for fireworks
this year I look for God in all the smoky residue
and even though
I am a
homeless
unstable
transient
this year
He's more than one party
one resolution
one kiss
so let the countdown begin
10...9...8...7...6...5...4...3...2...1...HAPPY NEW YEAR
