Lights...Camera...

Honestly?

I want you to back the hell off

I want you to take about a million steps away from me

I haven't done anything to you to deserve this

but you know all about hell don't you?

I can't even inhale properly

I'm sick of choking

choking back words, tears, emotions, memories...

NO!

I won't do this

I won't open myself up to you

not again

I've seen what you can do

because you're like a poison

seeping into the creases of my loose existence

I wish I could get a restraining order against you

but that's impossible

because you don't exist here

even though you are always present

But you know what?

I'm getting really good at tying my loose ends

I'm getting stronger

it's getting easier to build those walls

It would be so easy for me not to care

to flip the switch and make you not real

I could make you so small that

you

would

cease

to

exist

Yeah, I'm angry now

but in about 5 seconds I won't be

You'll be small again

and I'll be able to breathe

without you persecuting me

constantly reminding me of my failure

enforcing my humanity that I have come to despise

I won't feel sick anymore

they say you're the prince of darkness

well I'm a damn good actress

I should get paid for what I'm about to do to you

watch me work

in

5...

4...

3...

2...

1...

and...

ACTION!