first

let me touch your hands

so I can feel how much you love me

not just in the warmth

or in the fit

but in the scars

the depth of scars

the indent of scars

the smoothness of scars

The scars

that prove that you didn't just die for me

but you bled for me

first

the lumberjack

I know pruning is supposed to hurt

because you have to cut something off

but this feels more like lumber-jacking

over and over and over again

how will I ever grow if you keep cutting me down the middle

how will I ever be beautiful if you cut me off before I can bloom

how will I ever bear fruit if I am BARE

what kind of pruning is this?

I think you cut too much this time

because all I see is death and destruction

it feels like nothing will ever grow again

how can I trust in your faithfulness if you keep cutting me in half

how can I trust you are covering me in your love if you keep stripping me naked

how can I trust anything or anybody at all

if

You

keep

chopping

me

in

half

like

this

what ever this lesson is, I wanna learn it

because I cannot handle

there has to be more than this

salvation has got to feel better than this

what am I doing wrong?

Satisfaction

Walking in my cap and gown

The new cd I made for my car

A sunny day in Oregon

mmm...

Hearing my parents say they are proud of me

When Ricky was born

Monday night football with my Papa

yup...

When they figure out I can sing

Knowing I am missed

Winning an argument

oh yeah...

Turning his head

being your favorite

dancing all night long

...

the first shot of tequila

my paycheck with plenty overtime pay

sleeping with him

mmm... the taste of SATISFACTION...

the truth is

I

have

NEVER

been

satisfied.

have you?

what is it going to take to satisfy me

what will I do to satisfy you

Wanting to satisfy the crowd, Pilate released Barabas to them. He had Jesus flogged, and handed him over to be crucified. - Mark 15:15

LORD forgive me. Forgive your children. Forgive us.

Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days. - Psalm 90: 14

6 shots

mmm the aroma

gotta have it

after 6 shots

I got it all put together

the whole world sees me after 6 shots

you're the only one who sees me before

what do I look like?

i don't even know anymore

i wish i was addicted to you

at least you are free

tomorrow wake me up without it

or is that what you've been trying to do this whole time?

6 shots is so easy

it's everything else that's impossible

f*bomb

I've been fooling myself

we've all been fooling ourselves

I have been fooling you

I'M A FOOL!

shadowboxer

wake up work

wake up school

wake up surf

wake up smoke

for every one of us it's different

Sunday church

BBQ

football

shop

what does your day look like

for every one of us it's different

but for every one of us the same thing on the mind

souls

like bread stuck in your throat that you can't push down

hungry

tired

lost

dying

souls

and when your head hits the pillow at night

all you feel is the concrete of your thoughts

are you comfortable yet

on your concrete pillow?

wake up

who will fight for them but your shadow?

and when you're gone that's all they'll see

is a shadow of who you were meant to be

I just sneezed

Achoo!

but not so loud

I've never been a loud sneezer

as I bought...

what did I even buy?

I don't remember

yet it was only hours ago

Then she looked me in the eye

and said

'God bless you'

and kept her eyes on mine as I let that sink in

and I said

'thank you'

with more thanks than the usual cordial gratuity

thanks for the blessing

thanks for looking me in the eye when you said that

thanks for waiting for my reaction

thanks for saying the name

what was yours again?

it doesn't matter

you won't remember mine

but I'll remember the one you said

and next time, I'll say it too

and I'll look them in the eye when I do

so thank you

and

God bless you too.